Oh how i needed your email today. My week has been a peice of crap and it does have quite the story in it. But needless to say, i dont think my week was a wonderful one or any of that. Just adventure i quess you could say. I will get to that later though.
I want to go to the Gilbert Temple so bad. When will it be done in 2013? Do you know? I hope that i will be home to go through when they dedicate it. THat would be an awesome expierence. But i think i will keep the family tradition going and be married in the Mesa Temple. I do wish i had in n out though. Oh well. . . .
Whats up with just me and you being the injured ones in our family? Why doesnt anyone else get injured? Sounds like you have quite the problems hahaha. I am glad that your surgery went so well. I would want the cast off as soons as possible too. I hate them. I really like driving too. It is super good to hear that Cannon is out of the hospital. What a relief. I have been praying so hard for him and their family. I am so grateful that he is alive and will be a healthy boy when i get home. I know he will gain weight fast because he is a VDG and has the VDG curse of gaining weight. I hate that curse. I wish i could eat whatever and not gain any weight but that aint the case.
I am now excited to get the wedding invitation. I know that it will probably make me homesick though. I better start preparing for it. I took pictures yesterday and i will be emailing them to you today. I hope they are good. I will also be sending my camera card home with them on it. I will need that back as soon as possible. As for Christmas. . . I have thought about it. If you were to send a small package i quess i would want a electric shaver, dog tags with my name on it, deoderant that has NO Anti-persperiant in it Kamas knows what i am talking about(japanese people dont wear deoderant so they dont sell any), money, maybe you could sew me a scarf that would be cool. I will let you know over the next coulpel of weeks. But i do like the idea of money in my bank account for when i get home. Christmas is going to suck this year. It really is going to be different. But i am excited to talk with you guys.
I am so glad that you finally talked to coaches about Bug. They needed to knwo how messed up they are. Thank you so much. I really laughed at your story. I am proud of you mom. I love you so much. I hope that those coaches get fired. They suck so much. I am glad that Bug is handling it well and is on your side and is going to finish it out. Good for him. But like you said, it is in the past now and we can only move forward.
Sounds like you all had a pretty good solid week. I am glad Kamas and Brie are doing good. I hope that your hand gets better quicker. I will pray for you as i always do. Please let everyone know that i love them. Now, Let me tell you about my week.
So on Monday we had a lesson with one of out investigators who had a baptismal date. HIs name is Adachi. We meet him at the train station and he was trying to talk to me. I couldnt understand anything he was saying so i would just smile and say "Hai" or yes. When my companion came we went to go find a spot to sit and teach him. Adachi was acting really weird. He was saying stuff like "Ban Di choro said i cant touch him." and "What bike is mine?" Just really random things. I could have said that he couldnt touch me or that we could go to our apartment but i didnt understand him. Finally we made it to a Hotel lobby and started teaching him. He told us that he didnt need to be baptized because he was already in our church. He said that he had worked at a Christian Hospital and had been baptized into our church. We told him no. The conversation went along like that for like 30 min. Finally we told him that we were through meeting with him because he wasnt taking us seriously. (There was someother topics talked about but it was all the same). Me and my comp got up and left. We were outside the Hotle doors walking to the escalator to go to our bikes. we were talking about how weird this adachi was. Then we heard " BAN DI!!!". Adachi was running out of the Hotel and running after us. We started making haste towards the escalator. We started running up the escalators and adachi is behind us yelling my name BAN DI, BAN DI!!! We almost got caught by him because on the escaltor was another man and we had to push him out of the way to get away. It was an awesome expirenece and i had a blast. Adachi is crazy. Over the week he would send us some really weird texts and stuff threatening us. so we blocked him from our phone and havent heard anything from him since thursday. It was such a Fun expirence. One i will never forget. It was just funning to think back on him yelling my name while running after us. So funny. So that started the week off really well. Tuesday and Wednesday were good.
Thursday i got a bit homesick and down on myself. I really got frustrated at the fact that no one wanted to listen to us the whole day. It really frustrates me.
Friday it was raining and agian i got down on myself. No one wanted to listne to us and i was now really mad. I felt like i was just wasting time and not being successful. Thankfully i had study though. WE went out and worked in the moring. THis is were it gets really intresting. SO friday night we had planned on going seeing a member that lives probably 30 min bike ride away. It was in the rain too. So we left. My bike was having some problems and then my chain jsut fell off and wouldnt go back on. We had probably been riding for 15 minutes when this happened. I tried fixing my bike for at least 20 min. I was Pissed now. I lost my temper and i was on the verge of just killing somebody. I didnt swear though. I really wanted to though. Now i had to walk my bike home 30 to 45 minutes in the rain. I was so mad. On the walk home i had time to think about everything. It was so hard. It went deeper than just what happend with my bike. Some thoughts were i should just go home, ill never learn japanese, you arent successful, etc. It was a super hard night. I honestly considered coming home. I honestly felt that i havent done any good here and that i should just carry on with my life back at home. I had a lot of hard thoughts. I cant even describe what some of those thoughts were becasue there were so many and i just want to forget them. I tried my hardest to battle them. But then the thought came up of how can i be a good missionary, a missionary who thinks about his investigators and doesnt think about other things, if i am always battling the adversary in my head. Its a constant battle. i always have it. I hate it so much. When we got back to the apartement i sat in a chair and just thought. I thought about how boo, justin, kamas, and kess all conqured their missions and how they made them fun. I really wish kess was alive to give me advise. He is the closest one that i can to relate to becasue he too had to learn a hard language in another country. I thought about if i would actually make a 2 year mission. If i keep feeling like i did then and keep having those kind of thoughts, there is no way that i would want to do that for 2 years. I would just rather go home and serve the Lord in other ways. As you can see, it was a super hard time on me. REally hard. I need your prayers now more than ever.
Saturday i had to go and get my bike fixed. Its going to cost $100 to get it fixed. I couldnt belive that. I think the person was just trying to ripoff the white person who doesnt speak japanese. But that is what happend on saturday.
Sunday i was looking forward to all weeek becasue we had a less active baptism. The girl was 9 years old or so i thought. She turned out to be only 8. I thought that i was finally going to get my 1 baptism in the mission. God has a funny sense of humor i think. It really was the cherry on top of the whip cream. Finding out that you arent getting a baptism when you have been planning for this for a couple of months. It hurt me inside but not that much. I never taught this girl and i didnt feel like the missionaries should get the credit for her baptism, but i was still excited to say that someone came to Christ while i was there. But that didnt happen. I did however get to stand in the Confirmation Circle and that was AMAZING. I Felt the Spirit so much. I really want a to do that again so i can feel that spirit again. It was such a good feeling. I only understood one thing out of the blessing too. And that was when the bishop told her to recieve the Holy Ghost. It was good. Sunday night however i got super pissed at my comp again. we were talking about americans and japanese. He said that he loved japanese more than americans. I told him that i loved americans more. THen he continued to say "When you really love the poeple, your opinion will change aobut that." AARRGG!! I wanted to punch him in the face so hard. That is twice that he has offened me and made me feel like a unsuccessful missionary. I just brushed it off my shoulders and forgave him though. IT really hurts though and really makes some question their mission when others sya that they arent doing good enough. If you remember he told me that i wasnt giving a good enough sacrifce and now that i dont really love the poeple i serve. NO wonder i am having a hard time with thoughts and stuff. I just want a companion that is like me just wants to have fun and bring people to christ. I dont wnat compainons who make me fell like crap. But i continue to look for ways to serve and love him. TOday i folded his laundery. Oh and i alwyas cook the food. He has never made one meal this transfer.
So here i am today writing you this email. As you can tell, i have had quit the week with ups and downs. I really hope that i have learned what the Lord wants me to learn. I dont recall ever having this hard of week in my life. I really just want to speak japanese, get poeple who want to listen, having a fun companion, and do work. Dont worry. I dont want to come home. Well i do, but i will stay out on my mission until my time is up or i get sent home for some reason. But i want to stay and show the Lord that i love him and that i will do his will. I cant wait til i have more fun things to say and less hard things. I want to let you know how my week went and what is up in my life right now. This is what i am battling. I really need your prayers and everyones at home. If you could have my older brothers and father send me some advice in a good way, i would really appreciate it. Also, could you find something from kess mission. i really could use some help from him. I love you with all my heart mom. I really want to be at home enjoing everything that is going on and avoiding my hard times but hten i wouldnt learn what the Lord wants me to learn. I hope that you have a fantastic week. I will hope for the same. Give everybody my love. I Love you so much. I find joy listening to the birds in the moring. They are pretty and remind me of the simpleness of things. I also love reading the Book of Mormon in Japanese. I cant wait to read it at the cabin and you guys will have no idea what i am saying. I cnat wait til i understand more fully. Until then, God bless you and keep you safe.
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